I had an interview today with one of the communications companies in town. Its a cool job, or at least I think so. The interview didn't last too long, but it was intense! I was interviewed by the regional manager and the store manager. They were both very nice and easy to talk to so I wasn't intimidated. Their questions though...wow. It was a situation where all the questions were basically the same, but you had to come up with a different scenario for each answer, and everyone seemed like it was about my retail job at BBW, not what I could personally do to perform well on that job. They seemed to take it seriously, which I respect because it makes me feel like, if offered the job, that I will be taken seriously and my position will be a respectable one. I hate to admit it now, but I'm gonna feel bad if I dont' get this job. Its true that there are probably more qualified people out there for this position, but my ability to learn a position and sale as good or better than anyone is the reason that they should hire me over someone else. I told them that too, but it sounds better of course. LOL.

I did well at not sounding desperate, even though I pretty much am at this point. My paychecks from BBW last less than a day and I can't spend anything at all, ever. Whether its something I need or just want...I can't spend money right now and its killing me. I feel like I have no freedom whatsoever! I just really hope that I get this job! I can't even imagine how good it will feel to pay my car payment and be able to buy a freakin' tube of mascara and not feel guilty for it. I don't even care what the pay is! Min. Wage at 40 hours a week is still pretty incredible in my book. I really hope that I get this job. Sorry, have I said that too much?

Anyways...I feel good, and I'm trying to be postitive and confident. They said they wanted it filled next week, so here goes I guess.
On a lighter noted, this week is gonna feel good. Today is my gma's bday and we are going to dinner with her, This is inventory week at BBW so I get to work 2 full, real work days and I'm sooooo excited about that, one of my best friends is moving away to attend vet school and on friday we are gonna celebrate, and HOPEFULLY on saturday my boyfriend is going to compete in his first body building competion. I'm really excited for that. Even though I won't get my paycheck for these extra hours for 2 more weeks, it will be something great to look forward too.

I guess that's all for now. I've been down lately and I haven't felt the best because of it, but its my own personal philosophy that people have down days and up days. When you have a down day, in my opinion, just go with flow. Get some extra rest and do what makes you happy and don't worry about what anyone else things about it. I'm so over other people right now its not even funny. Here's my thought though...if you can't be selfish when you are 22 and single (well, not married is what I mean) when can you be? Love it or hate it, thats how I feel.

Digesting

I'm letting my lunch digest before working out. I should have went this morning but I just couldn't get myself going. The earlier I work out the better (and easier) it is, but when I have all day and nothing to do, its hard to get anywhere early.

I just typed a lot of text that took me a long time, but i deleted it all because it was a lot of bitching. I'm going to take a shower and go out. Not to the gym, but just go out. Later.

Sunday

Sundays are great and gross at the same time. I love getting up and going to church, going to lunch with KC's fam, having a good afternoon and sometimes working the afternoon away. Sundays are gross sometimes because of the way people act differently on sundays. Its probably just because we live in the bible belt, but on Sundays people drive differently, speak differently, and act differently and it bothers me, But, you can't change other people so I guess all I can do is not change who I am on sundays...

I have another interview soon, about a week away. This is just a job, not a career. At least its full time and I will take it if offered (I'm pretty confident I'll get it based on the qualifications, i'm WAY over qualified). Its considered a "retail" position, but I don't understand what is retail about working for a cable/internet/telephone company. Oh well, guess I'm about to find out. I would like to believe that within the next month my income will be greatly increased no matter what. I hope I'm not being over-confident, but it is way past time for me to have a full time job.

I'm still looking for better jobs too. If I get one of these positions, I won't spend hours a day seraching like I do now, but I'm not gonna be satisfied until I'm making what I'm worth. I'm not greedy, I am aware of my skills and ability to serve and I'll keep looking until my career meets those requirments. Nothing great has popped up lately, just some store management jobs in the "big city", which i can't see myself doing unless I absolutely have to. I have several friends who are in the job market and we all have different sets of skills so I always recommend jobs to them as I see them fit. I really want to help my friends get jobs because if i see a job that I can't do, I'd like a hard working honest person to have it. And, I feel like we all gotta help each other out these days.

Ok, I'm getting cliche! Just wanted to update where I stand at this point. Sundays are such a great day. Every sunday night I tell myself "this is the week" and sometimes i feel like it works. This is the week! Go me!

Today is A good day

Today is a good day.

I've had a lot of stressful days lately. Working 1 day a week at my part time job sucks, lowering my standards when it come to applying for jobs sucks, and people suck.

But today is a good day. After filling out more apps and handing in more resumes, something finally happened and in about an hour I have an interview with a medical imaging company to be their Marketing Manager. Sounds great. I wish the job was still posted on the board where I found it so I could accurately give info on the job and why I'm qualified for it, but I can't find it. Its not my dream job, but its something that I can get excited about. Its probably in the top 3 of jobs that I've REALLY wanted since I've been in the market.

Last friday I went to visit my roommate and order my bridesmaid dress for her wedding in september. That was great. It felt so good to get out of town, spend the day doing FUN stuff, and try on pretty dresses. I've felt better since then actually. Who knew having fun was the answer? I'm totally kidding, LOL.

So I'm excited, but trying not get my hopes up too much. There is no doubt in my mind that I can do this job, and I'm ready for the responsibility and whatever else comes with it. I'm just hoping and praying that I can successfully portray myself to these hiring people. Here's goes, wish me luck!