Yesterday I went to an "interview" for a sales position. A company with a duck mascot. It wasn't exactly an interview, but an opportunity as long as I wanted it, I assume. A person like me could really do well in it if I work hard enough, but the catch is this: I need a 200 dollar insurance license, and its 100% paid on commission so there is no guarentee of me ever getting paid. I really don't like that at all. I'm so broke right now that I can't afford to pay any of my own things other than a few basic toiletries and my parents pay for everything else and I can't take it. Its such a gamble! If i had a little money saved it would be a lot easier to make such a decision because I would have something to fall back on. Technically, I do have the 200 for the license, but not much more than for time and travel to get the license, and gas money, time, clothing, etc to make sales calls before I sell my first initial contract and get paid. Some people want to say I'm not loosing anything, but really I am because I can't afford to do it, but I also can't afford to not do it...its such a gamble and I'm just not good with this!
I don't know what to do. For the first time in my life I can't trust my intuition and just do it because minute by minute my gut feelings change and I just can't decide. I wish I wasn't such a mess, but oh well, right?
All other jobs I was looking forward are completely out now. I feel like i'm back to square one. Please, God...help me.
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