So much time, So little to do.

I wish I could, without sounding ridiculously desperate, how extremely bored I am not doing anything so an employer would hire me.

I'm still without a full time job, and I'm bitter, so I'm gonna explain something (again) really stupid.

I'm gonna talk about TWILIGHT. So quit reading now if you don't care, LOL.

I first read all 4 books last august, saw the 1st movie when it came out, and am now re-reading the series (1 book down, 3 to go!) I have no idea why the world of twilight is so all-consuming. I'm not a ridiculous 14 year old who is all "oh edward...." but really, and this is coming from so one who is normally so level-headed and serious, its just so POWERFUL. And here's why:

BELLA: The main character and most of the series is in her perspective. At first I didn't like Bella much. She's clumsy, attracts disaster, and doesn't realize how beautiful she is. But as many stupid mistakes as she makes (actually this emphasizes her human traits in her world of vampires so its a good thing). Her character is sort of annoying at times, especially in the 2nd book, but maybe I can understand why.
There are certain things about Bella that I identify with too. She likes to be alone and accepts silence and revels in it. This is totally me and its probably what I love most about Bella's character. She does spend time with friends and isn't socially awkward or anything and she's so smart and even witty at times, but she doesn't feel an obligation to be surrounded by people all the time. This, of course is great for Edward, but being able to identify with Bella's preference of being alone is great because so many people in my life don't understand and I think that I'm viewed wrong because of it.

EDWARD: I know, I know...what can be said that hasn't already? Well, I've got something, HAHA. Edward is possibly the most perfect love interest in any form of fiction I've ever seen, read, or even thought about and there are so many levels of his attraction to Bella that its so fascinating that I don't think I'd ever get tired of reading about it. I don't want to rub anyone's face it or anything, but if there is anyone on the planet who is like this fictional god of perfection, it might just be the person I'm lucky enough to be spending my life with. Yeah that's right I said it....KC is reminds me of Edward, and I'm not just saying that to sound good.
He can't read my mind...that is quite clear, LOL.
He's not supersonic fast...but faster than anyone else I know.
He's not cold blooded, but I don't mind.
He can't rip a full-grown tree out of the ground and throw it 1000 yards, but he's the strongest person I know and I can never over-power him. He could do enough damage (but never would) to make me think thats all I can handle.
He drives like a maniac...well, he used to. He's toned it down
But this is the characteristic that melts my heart. We've together long enough to get over than crazy honeymoon type intoxicating love (well, mostly, LOL) but when I first read Twilight, the reason I was so hooked was because in the beginning Edward talked to Bella in the exact same way that he talked me.
He didn't confess is undieing, immortal love, of course...but he curiosity and protectivness in the beginning was so indearing and so special that I've always though if something where to happen to us that no one else would ever measure up and I mean that to the core. And I'm not making this up because all of this happened long before Twilight was even first available to the public. I remember a lot of things he said to me in the beginning and I hope I never forget, but being able to re-live it through the relationship of Edward and Bella is just so magical.
At least in the movie, Edward played by Rob Pattinson is perfection. Reading the book before the movie, I imagined Edward looking exactly dead-on as he does in the movie. I'm not a Pattinson fan though....I'm a fan of Edward.

CHARLIE: In the book, it never exactly describes Charlie's look, and I was so very pleasantly surprise that in the movie he's HOTT. Yeah that's right Bella, your dad's a stud.

CARLISLE: Not as pretty in the movie as I imagined and he looks too old. Don't get me wrong, I love Peter Fascinelli and I do think he's very nice looking, but I don't think it translates in the movie as good as it should.

ROSALIE: dead on

ALICE: dead on

JASPER: not sure, but he works. I sort of wish he looked a little scruffier, but re-reading the books and imaging in the actor in the book, its a hard connection, oh well.

JACOB: dead on

EMMETT: Oh Emmett...sigh. Of course, put into the the twilight world I'd rather have edward because of his speed and intellect but EMMETT...he's so gorgeous!!!!!! Obviously its hard for me to deny my perfereance in real-life of muscles, and Emmett in the movie is probably close to what I imagine because I can't think of anything closer. Like I've said a million times...Maybe I would choose Team Emmett if given the chance. He's definitely sexy.

So maybe now I do sound like an obcessed, crazy 14 year old, but I feel my thoughts are justified. I know that Twilight is considered a Teen book, but that hasn't stopped millions of people from reading and loving it just as much as I do. Maybe I'm just making excuses, but I feel like their are deeper meanings behind the book more than just Bella and Edward's love story. I really hope that the Twilight series becomes legendary. It may not be a totally adult series, but I beleive that Bella and Edward's love and his attempts to protect her, and her strength and courage are legendary and they should get the respect they deserve. I love twilight, and I'm not ashamed.





This didn't waste as much time as I'd hoped. I'm still insanely bored and its not even 10am. I hate this.